aN iMAGE OF GOD'S TENDER LOVE...

I am a  gift, not a  choice

Can you feel me sleeping?
I rest my soul on your heart,
Can you feel me hugging you?
When you tell me you love me, when we are alone in the dark.

I feel your love,
As I am nourished inside
I hear their every word,
Shivering at their lies.

Please don’t believe I am nothing,
For I can breathe, I can see
Please don’t consider me lifeless tissue
Mommy, look deep inside, you know it’s me.

You know you love me
Remember you told me so
They are telling you to hate me,
Mommy, I love you too, please don’t let me go

You don’t even know me yet
Listen to me, please hear my cry
They pretend I can’t feel
Why are you listening to them mommy? Why?

I’m not asking for you to love me
I’m not asking for all you have to give
I only pray in silence
That you, my mother will let me live.

Where I should be safe,
No more can I close my eyes,
For the mother in whom I live
Is now convinced to let her child die.

Don’t let them kill me
I’ll never get to see the sun
I’ll never get to see the full moon
I’ll never get to swim; I’ll never even run

I’ll never throw a snowball
Or play with you in the rain
I’ll never feel anything
All I’ll feel is this pain

I’ll never see your smile
I’ll never know my mother’s touch
I’ll never kiss you goodnight
I’ll never hear “I love you so much!”

I’ll never have a teacher
I’ll never go to school
I’ll never feel true love
All I’ll feel is this doctors tools.

I’ll never get married
And see the joyful tears you’ll cry
Our life together has just begun
Please mommy give me a try.

I’ll never have a husband
Or never have the chance to love my own daughter
You’ll never be a grandmother
If you consent to this slaughter

Stop them from killing me
Mommy please hear my voice
God gave me to you
I am a gift, not a choice.

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